I told myself I would’t let this happen. I wouldn’t be “that” person. I fear that I have let my family down. I feel I am the reason they are unhealthy. I told myself when I got pregnant that I wouldn’t feed my kid a bunch of junk food. Hubby was a size 29 when we got married. While Cooper isn’t chunky I fear going down this path I am going down he will be soon. Bob is now a size 40. What have I done to my family? I feel like Urkel “Did I do that?”
There is a lot of guilt with this. I know I haven’t forced my husband to eat anything to make him a size 40, he did that on his own but I didn’t encourage anything different. He does the cooking at home but if I moan long enough I can get him to change his mind and we end up eating out. I feel that I am the reason he has become over weight. I am lazy therefore he is.
Now I know Cooper isn’t over weight, yet, I know with his height he will be a short child making pounds look bigger. It’s not that I want him to not have anything, he is a kid afterall, I just want him to eat as healthy as possible. I told myself I wouldn’t do this to my child as it was done to me. I was given fatty foods to eat and junk food in front of me all the time. This lead to me being an over weight teenage and picked on at school. For all that is in me I do not want that for my child.
I say this every year, this is MY year. It has yet to be my year and that again it by my doing. This year I am not going to say it will be my year, I am going to say it will be my FAMILIES year. My goal for 2011 is to get my family to change their eating habits. To not bring the bad food into the house to temp us. I want by the end of 2011 for use to be healthy as a family and not a number on a scale.
So as I sit here and write this I wonder how the hell am I going to accomplish this. Frankly, I have no idea. One day at a time, one meal at a time. I would like to get into menu planning and stick with it. I am thinking of going to Weight Watchers and learning their new plan (just go get the info I can’t do meetings). With the help of some great online friends and groups and some IRL friends it’s possible. Most of all, I have to want this. I can’t do this just to do it. Someone made the comment to me just today, about a different topic, but if I want success you need to fight for it. I think this is my fighting year folks. Hang tight with me.